I have come to learn that time is a really weird thing. Especially when it comes to God’s timing and how he chooses to orchestrate events in my life. I am usually in shock at how He never ceases to let things happen except for exactly when they need to occur. Not a minute too early or a second too late. I love being able to look back at specific moments in my life and see how God is so much wiser than me and knows exactly when something needs to happen. I will admit, it is easy to question why something didn’t work out at a certain moment when I really wanted it to. But then, I see how God did allow it to happen, just at a different time that made it so much sweeter, or how He brought about a different circumstances that were so much better than anything I could have thought up on my own. Even though I know all this and have seen how awesome it is before, sometimes I still just look and God and ask “Wait, why now? or “Why not now?”
Here lately, I have been reflecting on the Lord’s goodness in past situations in my life. It is so good for me to go back (especially to the beginning of the school year) and be reminded of how faithful God has been. He has calmed my fears and provided friendships. He has walked with me and talked with me through all the ups and downs that come with starting this crazy thing called college. He has carried me through. Right now I am in a season of life where I am facing a new set of trials and circumstances than I faced at the beginning of the year, and it is key for me to reflect on what He has done when I begin to doubt and worry. I know He will carry me through again, but I’m in the muddy, yucky part where I just have to wait on his timing and see what He has in store. I don’t want to be characterized by doubt and worry but my flesh so easily returns to them. Perhaps you can relate, but trusting and submitting which can be so difficult! I have been praying for strength and courage to trust God regardless of where He guides me over the next few weeks as I wait on his timing.
Yesterday at church, we sang a song with the lyrics “Give me faith to trust what you say”. As I sang them over and over, they really resonated with me and I began to pray them over my life. I am so quick to say, “Well of course I trust God!” and overall, I do. But it is often in the small things where I begin to question and have to remind myself to ask for that faith to fully trust him in ALL things. I find it most difficult to trust Him when it comes to timing. I can’t jump ahead of God just to get this show on the road. In case you have yet to learn this lesson for yourself, (I have more than I would care to admit), that isn’t the way to go! God’s faithfulness to us is so great and He only wants the best for each of His children and we will reap the reward if we wait.
A verse that has been of great to encouragement to me this whole semester, but especially the past few weeks is Isaiah 26:3 which says, “You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast because they TRUST in You.”
I sort of knew what steadfast meant but not really so I looked it up and the definition has stuck with me ever since. Steadfast– resolutely or dutifully firm and unwavering. Woah.
Think of how solid and constant God is- he never shakes or wavers. I have begun to pray that God will mold me to be like him in that I will be steadfast- dutifully firm and unwavering in my faith despite the waves of craziness, chaos, and doubt that threaten to toss me around.
Finally, this is another verse that holds truth I often cling to, especially in times of waiting like this one- Psalm 27:14– “Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” I have waited before and seen the blessings of the fruit of that waiting so I am at it again.
Just wanted to share these nuggets of truth God has been showing me recently . If you need me, I will be practicing my patience and trust skills while I wait on the Lord. 🙂